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| Todays lesson |
| 04.15.05 (6:37 pm) [edit] |
I went on a journey today, a journey with a friend called salvia divinorum.
I couldn't help but to be overwellmed by religious and/or spiritual visions and lessons.
I started off my journey by packing a banana, figs and some water and walked where ever my instinct carried me. Which led me to a hill by Kathleen street where i ended up sitting on rock. I sat down and meditated to become familiar with my surroundings. A few crows were around KAWing and stuff. While I had my eyes closed I heard a rustling so I opened them and saw a bunny running along! I will look into the sybolic significance of rabbits later but I assumed it was a sign of good luck, even though his feet were still attatched and not on keychains. After meditating to the point where i was nice and relaxed I stared to smoke my salvia, it was kind of complicated due to the wind and my bowl being small. I puffed and puffed away, waiting between bowls to feel the effects and in walked my teacher...
The truth is right in front of you! And other miscellanious visions
The most important lesson, I descided to stop studying religious ideas and texts put forth from those of the past. I was told by my thoughts to start studying the world around me to find out the secrets about life that bother me. Sure some have put more thought into it and have written down their findings. I think it's a good idea, perhaps this is just something I should do for now, ideas I have put inside my mind are clouding things which are right infront of my eyes.
The image of the illuminatis all seeing eye popped into my head. And I thought of the pyramids of egypt and the possibility of god manifesting himself over the greatest pyramid in the near future. But i'm not putting too much thought into that as it involves the idea the god is this one being that will one day reveal itself. I may have stated this in an earlier journal but for reference, I don't like beliefs and holding on to them very much and am sad that so many people limit their ideas to one single book when there are so many ideas out there, let alone what we have around us.
I was being watched
I also had a vision of a woman sitting down watching me. I wish I had a better way of describing her than she looked like the virgin mary. I don't know what she really looked like. I don't know if she existed... I was told that salvia is inhabited by a spirit(kinda like that How High movie but less hip hop), whis spirit is a teacher, I think this might be who I saw, I also got visions of womans eyes with feathers around them.
My prefered explaination of who this was is that she was my guardian spirit.
Here is a story my parents told me, I'm not sure if i believe it since some of it in a little hard to believe but...Some time between the ages of 0 and 2 I managed to run away from home at night. My parents went nuts because I dissapeared. I was returned by a woman my parents didn't know. My my tells me she must have been my guardian angel. What I find hard to believe is that:
A) I got out of my crib.
B) I opened the door to leave my house.
C) This strange woman knew where I lived.
I need to ask my parents to tell me this story again and get more details. If it is true that I have a guardian spirit who is female, I am very thankful.
Third Eye - Squeegeed open
At one point during my meditation with my eyes closed I began to focus on my third eye, on my forhead between my eyes. I got surrounded by a golden yellow light coming down from the sky. This was the end of my Lesson so I got up and decided to follow this fluttering, flapping or rsutling sound i had been hearing since i sat down but I never found it. I end up sitting on a rock and did some throat singing like I never did before. I finally achieved hitting two notes simultaniously, it was rather exciting and felt really good to sing to the flour mill area of sudbury.
The journey back home
I came down the hill in the yard of Better Beginnings, I'm not sure what it is exactly, its like a place for kids to do learn how to make art an various other things.
On my way back I saw a bag of chips in a yard and got a craving for some chips! So I stopped at Food Basics to buy some and saw Tanja there, she's a very nice person to talk too I'm happy I got to see her, she suggested I take the creek trail on my way home and that I did.
Back home
I got home and told Kenny, Sol and Josh my tale and then went to my computer to see if I may be fortunate enough to speak with Emily. And I was! :D
I'd still be talking to her now but my connection has been weird so I can't sign onto MSN right now.
I am pretty satisfied with my journey today. As always. Everytime I get an idea on how I can make my next journey alot better. Next time, I want to be in a small pitch black room, I want the least acess to my sense as pissible, and naked, I get hot and sweaty. extract would be a great benefit too, because it sucks to have to smoke so much. I would like the effects to be more immediate, rather than have it spread out so thinly.
Longest blorg... ever.
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posted by: emily (reply)
post date: 04.15.05 (7:05 pm)
I think this has brought out the traits i like about you most...
ADVENTUROUS!
ETHICAL!
MYSTERIOUS!
PLAYFUL![rabbit]
i wish we hadnt had that stupid conversation online, because you shouldnt think whatever that convo made you think about me...
you know how earthly i am!
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